Wow its been a lont time since I made my last entry. Cant say that I have been doing much. The start of this semester has been quite rocky. After working very hard in the fall I am feeling very unmotivated to succeed. The past couple of weeks have been more of a battle to get myself to work and to get adjusted to my workload. In the spirit of the new year in order to reach our goals we must push ourselves even when we feel at the core like our work is no longer worth the effort. When we feel this we must use our minds to overpower our emotions, and desires to quit. In my first weeks here at school I have felt as if I should not be here. I felt like this semester was going to be a waste of time as I slipped on my work and saw difficulty in getting my classes together. But once I set up structure, developed a routine, and spent some time getting myself in the right mindset I am finding it more and more easy to overpower those emotions to not make the grade. In reality this semster poses a new challenge. For the past year I have had ultimate freedom to do what I want. Being at school means giving up some of this freedom. I must realize that this is a choice of my own. Eventhough I may feel as if I am being held in bondage by my school, courses, community, etc I must see that this is all for a greater good. That in the long run being here ensures my freedom in the future. The harder I buckle down and work the freer my future will be. I will be able to make my own decisions on what I want to do with my life. Life will not make decisions for me I will make the decisions for my life. So this is my semester of choice. I will succeed because I have chosen to. My success will lead me to more places; grant me more freedom, and a flourishing two more years of college. This is my choice to do more for myself.

Wow after having a mostly boring break the last couple of days have been quite action packed. I spent a lot of the past weeks wishing I could go back to school. To see my friends and this week I finally realized the friends I have here at home and that I can have both at home and back at school. School has its benefits but being at home is all the blues. Even though I may get annoyed by my family etc, It is still nice to be able to go to the mall, switch it up with the people I hang out with, or do something entirely different. Hey did I mention that there is no homework too. But I admit I love school and learning too. This week was a great week for learning lessons. I saw the ways in which I will miss home. I discovered the benefits of school-mandated breaks even when I don’t think I need them. I feel more focused and ready to head into the semester very strong. With me having two days left before school I am going to get my things together. Have some fun. It was suggested that I take my sister skating, or to see a movie or hang out. I plan to do that tomorrow. Enjoy myself and prepare for the great semester ahead of me. See you back at school!

Well since it is officially the New Years and the holidays are over, I thought for sure that things will be open. I waited for the mail to come so I can send off an important letter and a bill that needed to be taken care of. Of course as most things have been in the couple of weeks it was not business as usual. Things like calling my school, or asking questions from the prospective schools that I wanted to transfer to would be difficult especially if these things were not to be open. Looks like the semester will be in full swing as soon as school starts again so it is important that I do my essays for at least two of the schools I want to transfer to. The funny thing is I am procrastinating where no procrastinating is needed. Hopefully tonight I will get some work done on them. These questions just need to be answered with a clear mind and truthfully. When you can simply ask a question with little thought or distraction you can sometimes find the real answer. The best way to answer life long questions (something that college ask you to see how focused your really are) is to have a clear and focused mine. A mind that is free of societal woes and expectations. Don’t let outside pressures effect your decisions. Think about you and yourself. What do you want! What do they want and combine the two. Ask questions of them what feels right for them and what feels right for you. Answer clearly and precisely from your heart!