Wow its been a lont time since I made my last entry. Cant say that I have been doing much. The start of this semester has been quite rocky. After working very hard in the fall I am feeling very unmotivated to succeed. The past couple of weeks have been more of a battle to get myself to work and to get adjusted to my workload. In the spirit of the new year in order to reach our goals we must push ourselves even when we feel at the core like our work is no longer worth the effort. When we feel this we must use our minds to overpower our emotions, and desires to quit. In my first weeks here at school I have felt as if I should not be here. I felt like this semester was going to be a waste of time as I slipped on my work and saw difficulty in getting my classes together. But once I set up structure, developed a routine, and spent some time getting myself in the right mindset I am finding it more and more easy to overpower those emotions to not make the grade. In reality this semster poses a new challenge. For the past year I have had ultimate freedom to do what I want. Being at school means giving up some of this freedom. I must realize that this is a choice of my own. Eventhough I may feel as if I am being held in bondage by my school, courses, community, etc I must see that this is all for a greater good. That in the long run being here ensures my freedom in the future. The harder I buckle down and work the freer my future will be. I will be able to make my own decisions on what I want to do with my life. Life will not make decisions for me I will make the decisions for my life. So this is my semester of choice. I will succeed because I have chosen to. My success will lead me to more places; grant me more freedom, and a flourishing two more years of college. This is my choice to do more for myself.